For the past two days, I've been connecting within my own inner truth, trying to understand what it is I'm feeling.
Disappointment. Sacred anger. Fuel for the fire that my Pluto in Capricorn transit these past sixteen years has been leading me to embrace...
It started with my first spiritual awakening in the mountains of France in 2008 when, homesick and on my own, I had my first Reiki session with a village medium. It continued in 2012 with Lyme disease catalyzing me to a deeper level of spiritual truth when honoring my intuition helped me save my life. And it activated when I met my sacred partner and divine mirror in 2017.
The past few years, I have been through the fires of initiation--down rabbit holes, into pockets of the spiritual community and back out again, through crises of faith and self-doubt as I faced people I once held in high-esteem denigrating me and questioning my work and worth. I pulled back from my work to sit in the stillness of my own reflection and connect with my heart, my truth. I examined every belief and unpacked every intention, knowing that integrity and authenticity are two of my strongest values, and I turned to my soul family to seek out any unconscious blindspots.
What I discovered was my call to rise. It was a challenge to know myself on the deepest, most inherent level, and to anchor into the truth of my soul. This was the initiation to my higher-heart acension. This was the activation to embodying my personal empowerment--an unshakeable knowing in who I am and what I stand for while maintaining the flexibility to grow, shift, and expand.
It was here, I began to anchor into my inner union and put into practice my own teachings. It was here I realized that the Christ-Sophia consciousness has always flowed through me--as it flows through us all--I just had to embody it, to trust in myself and my connection with GodSource as one. It was here I activated the Wild Feminine aspect of the Divine Feminine.
It was here the flame was lit.
The Path of Empowerment
I don't always show this side of myself, but that's not on purpose. I'm a Libra sun, Cappy rising, and I generally embody those aspects of peace and groundedness and harmonious connection.
But I've also got an Aries moon (and a Leo Venus/Mars). This girl's got some fire in her, and part of my own personal journey has been learning not to shy away from lighting the spark.
That fire is burning now, and it has been for quite some time.
For the past year or so, I've been calling out the toxicity in the Twin Flame community that keeps us stuck in consciousness loops. It's why I wrote my book--to "rewrite the template"--and it's why I go into such depth with my teachings. Because the journey isn't about your partner. It's about you.
It's always been about you.
Your ascension is your personal spiritual journey, and your partner is part of that. Other people, your community will be part of that. But it's authentic to you--to show you who you are at the core, to help you remember your own holy connection to God/the Universe/Higher Power without a middle man, to empower you to shift your energy to shift your life and how that has a ripple effect.
To remember we're all part of the whole.
The past two days have been emotional, and I've spent some time going within to understand why. I have no allegiance to any establishment or "leader," let me be clear. I will always stand on the side of humanity--for the people, in acceptance and compassion and empathy for all without division. I have walked this talk my whole life--supporting the impoverished and advocating for the voiceless and standing with the innocent. Since I was a teenager, my philosophy has followed a simple quote by Thomas Paine: "My country is the world, and my religion is to do good."
This is what I stand for. This is what I believe in. And this is why, for the past two days, I have felt such disappointment and pockets of anger.
Maybe we're not as far as I hoped we'd be, collectively.
And yet, I'm reminded that not all is what it seems.
It feels like we're literally living in two different collective realities, and I couldn't seem to wrap my mind around this. Was I missing something? Is there something that I haven't been seeing?
Once again, I dove into self-reflection--as is my tendency, I looked at the scenarios (and myself) from every angle until I returned to my own heart, my personal connection within, to honor my intuition and what I perceive.
I see the shift in my every day life, in my relationships, in myself. I see it in friends who have no interest in spirituality suddenly speaking to me about their hope for the world. I see it in neighbors launching their own non-profits to provide a safe haven for the vulnerable. I see it in one-on-one interactions of kindness and compassion with strangers on the street.
And now I understand what the collective reflection is showing us.
The world is going through an awakening, and the shadow has been cast now so that we can begin to remember that we are the embodiment of light--in our essence and our actions, as individuals and as a collective. It will not come from someone or something outside of ourselves.
That's the bullshit I'm calling out now in the spiritual community.
There's been an emphasis in the spiritual community of looking outside of ourselves for a "savior"--someone to lead us into a new golden age, into New Earth. But New Earth is a collective consciousness shift, and while individual leaders can have an enormous impact in their actions on creating physical change, it's crucial to look at the energy behind them, surrounding them, and the community they're cultivating:
Are they empowering others to think critically for themselves, to trust their own intuition? Are they welcoming questions and the challenging of beliefs? Are they lifting all people up (not just select, decided groups)? Are they learning and evolving and expanding, and passing that on to their community?
Most importantly, are they unifying with the intention of love and peace or curating more division?
Are they embodying unity consciousness?
Returning to the Heart of Ascension
Ascension, in its true essence, teaches us that empowerment doesn't come from placing our trust or power in someone else, but from living the Christ-Sophia consciousness within. It's up to us--in our personal responsibility and self-accountability--to embody this path.
Right now, we’re seeing the desire for unity and yet experiencing the divisive rhetoric and actions that come from giving away one's sovereignty and projecting hopes onto someone outside oneself, forgetting that we each create from within.
In doing so, many are unconsciously entering a new kind of matrix by another name, slipping into another system where instead of co-creating, they're blindly (or not) following someone else’s vision. Personal empowerment is traded for dependency—just this time, on an energetic level.
A few weeks ago, I shared my experience of my own "exit point" and the importance of discernment for your own life in the following video:
True discernment means consciously asking: Does this belief/thought/action bring me closer to love, unity, and personal empowerment, or does it feed fear and division?
Our ascension journey is not about idolizing anyone outside ourselves. It’s about walking with each other while embodying our inner union and choosing to live as expressions of divine love and unity.
As we do this, the shifts within our collective reality come from our shared commitment to the sacred journey—shining light on love and empowerment in everything we do.
Yesterday, I shared a message across my social media platforms. I’ve always strived to see things from a higher perspective—and I still do, which is why I remain deeply committed to our ascension journey. However, I've also realized the importance of expressing myself and my own beliefs.
They don't have to be yours. In fact, if my beliefs and my teachings no longer resonate with you, I wish you well and so much love on your journey. If they do--cool. You know where I'm coming from when I'm channeling for union, sharing messages of unity, and encouraging personal empowerment.
Either way, I love you. I honor you. I will always continue to do so.
With respect,
Susan